Wednesday, March 3, 2010

More finishing and more starting and more crazy

Jerry's hat is finished.  Its still not perfectly lined up, but the look I got from him said "its fine, can I wear it now?"  LOL  I told him I might try again to see why I couldn't get it to line up.  We'll see.  I have a TON of that yarn, so I can certainly make 1 more hat.  (Then he has one when he loses this one, but you didn't hear me say that.)

I also cast on and got a little bit of Abbie Girl's cardigan started.  I hope she likes it!  Well, she's 6 months.  I hope Sandy likes it!  :)  Its white.  I decided to make it 18 months so that I have time for her to grow into it and that way when I misjudge the gauge, at least its too big and not too small for her already.  Although, Sandy will be pregnant again soon, I'm sure, and the next baby girl could just wear it!  Ha! 

I love Sandy and her all of her kids.  The current count is 5.  Part of the reason I love Sandy's family so much is that they are not "perfect".  Her kids are not all dressed alike like stair steps when they walk into the church.  If her oldest decides to dress herself and its not what Sandy would wear, Sandy says "Hey... its your style kid.  You decide."  Sandy calls herself a crunchy-momma.  I love it! I hope I can be that laid back with my kids, but still teach them good values and attitudes the way she does.  To me... Sandy has it figured out.  She's made the list of strongest Christians I know.

My favorite part is that she doesn't CARE what people THINK!  I wish I could do that.  I wish I could walk into a place wearing whatever I what and dare people to say something.  Not that Sandy at all looks weird or anything.  But when I first met her, she wore headscarfs to cover her hair during her husband's deployment.  I didn't know why.  I wondered what denomination she was from.  (She had too short of hair to be Pentacostal, but had the skirts and the headscarf and all?  I was confused for a bit.)  Now, it wasn't a burqua like Muslim women wear.  Just a simple scarf.  Sometimes with pretty sparkles in it, but simple, that covered her hair.  I learned later what it was about, but that's her story. 

I just would like to have her confidence.  I wish I had the confidence that says "The Lord loves me whether you do or not, so don't bother telling me I'm weird."  LOL  Sandy is an awesome friend, too.  I don't get to spend nearly the time with her that I would like due to kids, schedules, car situations and the fact that she doesn't live on Post.  However, we have a great time when we do.  We are so much alike.  Its a lot like how I felt when I became friends with Kira.  Someday, I feel Sandy & I will have the history that Kira & I do.  Then I will have 2 awesome friends that accept all of my craziness!  Yay!!  1 will know Army craziness (Sandy) and 1 will know home craziness (Kira), because those are 2 VERY different worlds. 

I want to make this cardigan for Sandy's little girl because friends get knitted things for babies.  And I very much dropped the ball on Sandy.  While Sandy might not understand the extent of my need to knit for those I care for, I know she will appreciate it.  She told me it was o.k. that Abbie's first sweater didn't work out and I had to ditch it and find something new.  She said its o.k. that Abbie got moved down the list of knitting.  (Which in no way says how much I care for someone.  Kira and Jerry both just got their hats in the last 2 months!  Peggy will get her first knitted thing from me next week!  These are people that are as important to me as my parents!  In fact the farther down you are on the list, might show how much I love you?  LOL)

Anywho... Sandy is cool and awesome and I want her to know how much I appreciate her as a friend.  Especially since she helped me so much yesterday to realize my boundaries and say "its o.k. if you have to quit PWOC."  Which, I did.  Not completely.  Not to the point that I'm doing nothing.  Just taking a step back and saying "I can't do everything right now."  It completely helped to have someone else say "You're not whining or lazy.  You can't do it all and its o.k."

BTW, on the same note... while I have been complaining about my symptoms of Bell's Palsy and side effects of medication to anyone who will listen... I forgot to praise the Lord for something.  I CAN STILL KNIT!  Hear that, guys?  Even GOD doesn't take my knitting needles out of my hands.  He knows my need to cope through tiny loops of soft yarn that I can count and control and fix if I need to.  LOL  The Lord knows and loves my craziness.

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